January 2012
1 post
Watchi’m baaaaaaaaaaack.
February 2011
1 post
depressed.
i haven’t been on here in forever. i just need to vent and get this all out somewhere..
i’m so fucking depressed. i just don’t know where to turn. i honestly came to the realization last night that no matter if things work out or if they don’t, i’ll be happy. i just hope i can realize which way it’s going to go soon because the way things are, i can’t...
October 2010
1 post
September 2010
5 posts
WARPED TOUR 2011 BAND ROSTER:
colormefaithful:
imnotthatgay:
dearmicaelacountmein:
kayteesometimes:
allysyn-:
holdmyloofah:
kirkenburger:
mikeboss:
These are the bands on the roster as of now. The roster will increase in time :D
VANS WARPED TOUR 2011 ..Main Stage.. All Time Low (pepper spray not included) Circa Survive A Day To Remember Flogging Molly Isles & Glaciers Jimmy Eat World NoFX Something...
....ugh
i wish i didn’t feel like this all the time.. i wish even more that he never gave me a reason to feel this way.. i want to stop thinking all the time. i want to stop worrying. i want to just feel normal again..
i wish i knew when this would all stop..
August 2010
4 posts
wow..
last night was like nothing ever before. it was like the first time all over again, except it was even better than the original first time..
…the worst is over… <3
reposted here for the non-PRDers..
i’ve been doing a lot of reading about dealing with infidelity and i’m at such a loss. i don’t know what i want to do. i know it’s going to take a long time for me to make a decision at all, but i feel like everyone will judge me for this. i’m not saying yes i’m definitely going to take him back and i’m not saying i’m going to get divorce papers....
gahhhh!!!
i really hate the fact that my iud makes me wanna have sex really bad..
love is just a four letter word for lie.
well, after months of constantly trying to make things better between Nick and myself, it’s officially over. i found Facebook messages from Lauren, a girl who pierces at his shop telling him she loves him and can’t wait to see him and kiss him. he denied it, but admitted to being involved with her for two months once i was at my mom’s house.
i have never in my life been hurt...
July 2010
7 posts
ugh.
i love being a mom more than anything in the entire world, but it sucks that Nick and i can never go out together. it’s always either i go out and he stays home with Rox or he goes out and i sit home [which happens much more often]..
my mom is really the only person we ever have to watch Roxy late cuz she usually stays over if w’re gonna be out late. i wish we trusted more people or...
i want pink fucking hair.
too bad my hair hates me and won’t bleach out anymore.. :( :( :(
Watchas i was previewing this before uploading it, Roxy kept saying hi!! to the video Roxy.. so cute hahah
maybe someday..
…i won’t have to explain everything out a hundred fucking times.
…plans won’t change at the drop of a hat to accommodate someone else.
…i won’t be here sitting home alone on a friday night.
…i’ll be a priority.
who am i kidding.
Watchthought i’d try out the webcam? should i keep doing it or no? lol
things have been so crazy lately.. i’m not going to put everything into this blog but i’m hoping we’re past the ups-and-downs and everything will just run smooth from here on out.
tia and i hung out on saturday at my “yard sale” and looked at all the old videos we recorded and even more ridiculous old pictures. oh my god.. we laughed til we were near tears....
FUCK YOU.
June 2010
11 posts
productive!
sooo since i’ve been home and nick’s playing a show at rockstars, i have done a shit load of laundry. all the dirty laundry is down in the basement and separated. two loads of mine and nick’s are hung and folded, one load of roxy’s hung and folded, a load in the washer, a load in the dryer.. i’m on a roll.
i’m on the fourth episode of “Hung” on HBO...
don't dream it... beeeeee it!
so yesterday was pretty shitty. lol. i got all excited because i heard my boss got transferred to another desk [he sucks dick. figuratively and most likely literally.], then found out he didn’t get transferred but that he will now be managing our desk as well as another. good going c3i, let’s let him fuck up not only one desk, but two. fucking morons… thennnnn i tried making nick...
cuz we're the three best friends that anyone could...
watching the hangover for possibly the tenth time in like a week haha.
plan starting now::
-exercising every single day. i’m actually okay with my weight right now [i COULD still lose another 5 or so pounds..], but i just want to get rid of my love handles. they’re not as bad as they used to be, but if i can get rid of em completely, i would be so happy.
-get a tan. my face is so...
you'd think after 22 years i'd be used to the...
i am an emotional wreck. i’m about to just give up, i don’t know what else to do anymore. i feel like everything i do just makes things worse. i can never win. if you ain’t first you’re last.. i’m definitely not first.
momma and the roo.
soooo today i was sitting at work counting down the minutes til i left [i got out 3 hours early] and i decided to check my bank account.. i look and it’s saying my actual balance is $224, but my available balance was $39. i FREAKED out. i just got paid monday, and despite buying nick three sets of ink for his birthday, paying the car insurance, and paying my student loan i KNEW there was no...
blah.blah.blah.
so this weekend was pretty terrible. i thought it was going to be an explosive end, but thankfully, it didn’t turn out that way. things are looking up and we’re both going to try really hard to fix our relationship, and more importantly our friendship. we both love each other more than anything in the world, and we’ve been letting all the stupid, petty shit get in between us way...
lightened..
i just wrote a huge private entry. it makes me feel a little bit better, but not by much.
i’ll save you all the depressing details. i’m caring less and less nowadays. i need to start making a lot of changes in my life. i can’t continue living my life like this. i’m a completely different person than i ever wanted to be and i hate what i’ve become.. almost as much as...
it's friday, i'm in love..
so work was shitty today.. someone please explain to me the point of hiring a ton of new people and finally getting call volume to a point where we’re not each taking 30 calls a day and then shipping half of the newly hired people off to other desks?! makes no sense to me whatsoever, especially when we have a big siebel upgrade coming up soon.. annnd transitioning all our users from windows...
my first post.
well, i finally decided to grow out of the livejournal phase and move onto tumblr. i hardly ever posted on my livejournal to begin with, so i hope i can actually keep up on this.. since this is just my “introductory” post i won’t drag this on forever hah.
-bettie.